thinking

I haven't posted on here in a while and I'm not even sure anyone reads this. the cool part is that I can go back on these little posts and see my climb to hopefully my biggest dream (and I don't have to capitalize the beginning of sentences... cause I'm cool like that... not really). sometimes I have these realizations or humbling moments that really open my eyes. I don't have any idea what I'm doing if I'm totally being honest. I have no idea where I'm going, but that's what pushes me forward. I want to do this music thing. it's my biggest goal, and sometimes it's scary because I have no idea what else I want to do with my life. I don't want to do anything else. I was just listening to I'm Gonna and it just hit me how hard this is. I'm so thankful we could get this far (we as in me and you... this is all you helping me out here). I don't even know what I'm saying but all those social media posts, videos, performances, late nights... they all point towards one goal and each step is a little closer. I'm writing this more to myself I think because I get discouraged sometimes, or bogged down by school and everything else in life. but I want to do more than just school, job, get married, have a family, grow old... die. I want to change the world. I want to do bigger things, bigger than myself. I don't even know. just thinking. 

night babes

ella

 

here by Alessia Cara... "and we'll discuss our big dreams, how we plan to take over the planet."

step 1 to changing to world: cute clothes & coffee  (or just sweatpants and coffee...)

step 1 to changing to world: cute clothes & coffee  (or just sweatpants and coffee...)

step 2: spray paint your name on a big piece of paper